Maisie Williams confesses that her relationship with her dad during childhood was traumatic.
“As a young child before the age of 8, I had a traumatic relationship with my dad,” Williams said on Monday’s episode of “The Diary of a CEO” podcast.
“That relationship really consumed a lot of my childhood. Ever since I can remember I really struggled with sleeping, and I think a lot of the traumatic things that were happening, I didn’t realize that they were wrong,” she further described to host Steven Bartlett.
Williams, who is now 25-years old, claims she felt alienated from her peers while growing up because of her experiences.
Williams said, “I would look around at other kids and wonder, why don’t they seem to understand this pain or dread or fear? Where does this joy come from? When does that come for me?”
“I was someone who felt very deeply in my childhood compared to a lot of other people. I won’t go into details about my father because it also affects my siblings and whole family. However, my mom, Hillary Pitt Frances, was able to escape from my father when I was four months old,” Williams continued. “It was bad before that.”
Williams was the youngest amongst her four siblings.
Despite holding back on the details, she did describe the moment a teacher asked her about her home life, planting the seed in her head that something was wrong.
When she was just 8 years old, her teacher asked her if she was hungry, to which she said she was. When the teacher further inquired if she had had breakfast, she told her no because we just didn’t have any breakfast.
Williams ultimately revealed to the teacher that she and her siblings typically didn’t eat anything in the mornings.
As she broke into tears during the interview, Williams said, “They were asking the right questions. I had so many people who loved and cared about me so much, but I had never been asked the right questions where I could really say what was wrong.”
After the exchange with her teacher, Williams’ mother arrived at school with her siblings.
“It was really, really hard because I still wanted to fight and say, ‘No! These things aren’t bad! You’re trying to take me away from my dad and that’s wrong!’ Because I was like, indoctrinated in a way,” Williams expressed. “I felt my whole world flipped on its head that day. While it felt good to get away from my father, I knew it felt against everything I knew to be true.”
Describing her family situation as somewhat of a “cult,” the actress expressed a shift in perspective on her father and childhood years later, and a desire to stop taking things that happened in her life personally.
“If I wasn’t there it would’ve been someone else. It’s not because something is wrong with me that these things happened when I was a child.”
